Monday, 11 February 2008
WHAT WE SEEK
there are things to learn
there are things to recall
many things to understand
many things to experience
many things that buffet the soul
many things that baffle the eye
and the waves of wishes cannot wash them away...
mother to care for
father to attend to
siblings to provide for
friends to cherish
heartthrob to adore
neighbours to accommodate
and enemies to bless...
what about passion that punishes the flesh
feeling that bares fangs
thought that torments the soul
and think of moment of mockery
when expectation implodes
in the face of realization...
we are dying to live
we are living to die
if you know life, you have seen death
life and death run riotously in our mortal veins
is life a painstaking pain in the neck
a cataracted dust in the eye
an elephantiasistic swelling on the leg
an uproarious upset in the belly
a migraineous ache in the skull
or a bulging boil in the armpit...
we seek the power of endurance
we seek the energy of hope
we seek the sacrifice of love
we seek the gateway of eternity to the ben of bliss and tranquility
we seek the meaning of yesterday and today
and the greater meaning of tomorrow...
can cessation be bliss
illusion may be sweet
like a measure of life's fleeting pleasure
may life's illusion not overtake us...
what do you seek?
YOU AND I…
i watched a whispering palm sharing
hush-words with a soothing wind blowing
i listened with awe as a bird sang away her heart
with such reverberating rendition
my heart reaching a new height
in ecstatic delight of a fusion of sounds
a symphony of sonorous sing-song
where was i when nature began to speak?
i began to concern myself with what lay in my hand
about the dreams unshared and those unfolding
in my hand
i saw thread of lines running across my palm
like an undying childhood memory
that crawls with old age
in my hand
i held a destiny that was eternally mine
and a future that was undyingly yours
i opened my eyes
i opened my hand...
i have dreamt of whispering palm and chirping bird...
i am yet to hold your hand in my hand
i am yet to see you beyond the waves in my head
that hit against the rocks of my heart
i opened my mouth
drew a long breath and wished for words
i wished for words upon words...
i lost their echoes in the sea of my wandering mind
there were times words have failed me until i opened my mind
i opened my mind
i found missing meanings and muddled musings
i opened my mind
i found untitled feelings and uncompiled thinkings
and i kept opening...
i kept opening and opening and opening my mind
i reached my heart
the seat of motivation
i closed my eyes and went groping inwardly...
i found a plethora of passion and reason
i found a euphony of voice and silence
i found, i found, and i found
i found there's no end to the depth of my soul
i found in my moments of reassuring myself
that i was worth the world's affection
that i was worth the world's attention
i found you
i found you adding more bright colours to the canvass of my life
i found you
i found you from a distance drawing ever closer to me
i found you like a rare gem never to be lost
never to be traded; never to be abandoned...
i wondered could friendship be this strong and real?
could distance engender nearness?
what magic do we hold for each other?
i wondered why are we both standing hand in hand
shoulder to shoulder in our mindsets?
could this be a slow passing fancy?
like the sands of the sea are
can one possibly find answers to them all?
why would i?
why would you?
why would one grope in the darkness of distance
for a face not ever seen before?
i paused for not knowing it all
even the depth of my heart
i paused for knowing what my heart yearns for
i paused for knowing what i do not know...
i paused for i cannot possibly share what i don't have
...for knowing what i seek is the future
and it is in the future
i paused for you to look me in the eyes
i paused for you to search out what your own heart harbours
i paused for you to add better meaning to your passion and reason.